There are often times in awakening when we are very Quiet.
There is no movement into the exterior world.
There is no pull to connect with other people.
It is almost as if you are being reverse-engineered inward and away from the world.
The power of the awakening process to hold you in such deep silence and quietness will dominate and preside over any effort of the identity that pushes against it. Such periods of Quiet can be brief or can last many months, and sometimes might underpin life for several years.
I have been in such a phase for some time.
At various levels of depth.
Over the last months, the quiet has been all-consuming.
At the start of 2022, I was shown that the next two years would be very quiet and more inward personally and that during that time there would be significant renovation. This has proven to be very accurate.
I have not really bothered with much outward movement into the world in my personal life. I knew any such efforts would not bear fruit. I knew I would lack magnetism in my personal life. The energy behind that magnetism, the power that usually generates things on that level, was directed inward instead.
I have spent a lot of time at home, creating a garden, cultivating a relationship with my pup, resting in and allowing the quietness and the emptiness to be the active force in my life.
Amidst this process, there has been a very significant deepening of expansion and awakening based on dissolving into emptiness further.
Most awakening processes use emptiness as a doorway into fullness, into oneness, into oneness with all things and this is very rich and sometimes vivid too. Awakening that asks you to stay in the emptiness simply keeps dissolving back and forth in time anything that remains.
If you find yourself in one of these processes of emptiness, of quietness, know that a great opportunity has come for you to deepen.
Emptiness and quietness will hold a mirror to every sliver of need, drive, ambition, fear, and motivation that does not essentially come from stillness and awakening. It will reflect to you any movements that remain in your life that come from any level of drama of being human, trauma responses and conditioning.
This time of being Quiet needs generosity and compassion with yourself. At first, everything will resist because this kind of process is completely counter to the very driven concept of life that we live with in the West.
The do-er in you will scream with frustration.
The social one will keep reaching out even as the senses draw you in and fall flat.
The mind will make up stories about isolation, and not fitting in, and falling behind, and being different.
See if you can rest in the silence and the Quiet, and simply watch the mind until it exhausts itself. Give the mind and its complaints to the quietness, to the force of the emptiness itself.
The last couple of years have been the most inward of my life and one of the gifts of this has been to come to rest in the profound beauty of aloneness, not aloneness in relation to other human beings, but the aloneness that is at the core of self-realization: that there is only One.
The realization of the beauty of Aloneness is a freedom and fulfillment for which there are no words.
Will I emerge from this phase?
Will it matter if I don’t?
Has quietness wrapped its tendrils around you on your own journey?
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